Something of a rush of days and years has led to this moment. Well, really, to Sunday.
A womb cocooned time prior to that day for his bedrest pregnancy and suddenly, years, an entire childhood has gone by and he can vote in the next election. He is preparing to leave for college. He has spent the last two 2nd half of the weeks out of the house for Choral field trips. Last weekend in a competition in DC with his school’s Jazz Choir, also a day this week out of town competing with his school’s Jazz Band, and this weekend he is in the All-Virginia Choir in Richmond. He has a job.
How does this happen?
Here he is at 5, his little sister’s age, enjoying/putting up with a trip on Papa’s sailboat on a hot and windless day on Long Island Sound in August 2000.
It is very him.
I am very proud of who he is, though I kid and call him Mr. Cynic. He is a well-rounded, talented, smart, compassionate, and passionate young man. He has grown up exactly how I wanted him to, with his eye on goals, his heart in tune with the world around him and ready to be a force for good.
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1. Mr. Cynic is a loyal friend.
2. He doesn’t put up with crap.
3. He questions everything that should be questioned.
4. He plays 3 instruments and sings.
5. He writes songs. They’re catchy.
6. He was a pretty little guy, and he’s grown into a handsome young dude.
7. As a toddler, when he ran, he ran looking behind him and would run into walls, because he liked how the wind felt rushing through his hair. I guess he wanted to see it, too.
8. Mr. Cynic has a huge heart.
9. He speaks a secret language with Toots, consisting completely of raspberries.
10. He reluctantly and loudly puts up with Captain Comic, but if anyone else treats him with anything other than respect, he becomes as protective as their Mama Bear.
11. He strums, a lot, behind closed doors.
12. He will sing and play for anyone else, but hides it in the house.
13. But I hear him.
14. His head is on straight. I don’t think he’ll get into too much of the stupidity that some of us go through in college.
15. He knows he can call me if he does, and I won’t kill him. I’ll just let his conscience take care of that for me.
16. He has weathered many ups and downs and challenges in his young life. I think he’ll be able to handle anything life throws at him.
17. He’s at the edge of the nest, and while I want to go ahead and shove him out, I want to hold him near just a little while longer. Get in as many hugs as he’ll endure. Tell him how much he really is loved and how that will never change.
18. Something new is coming for him. And it’s him.